I have always liked him. His name is Andrew and I am Vivienne. I could see that I can trust myself around him , be my most vulnerable self and give him access to a part of me that I have never given anyone before. It was not an easy decision. But since he had been cogently asking me, for quite some time and I had been reading about the safe ways to do , the pros and cons of it , one day I finally said I will do with him. He felt so happy and hugged me so tight when I told him Yes. He said, there was nothing to worry about and also added , if I was not 100% in it, he wouldn't press me any further. He said, very sincerely that It will be his honor, to have this experience with me as we have known each other for quite some time and doing this will really add meaning to our relationship.
The day came, I had a good meal and I was a bit antsy on the inside. But I read my emotions and understood that they were not coming from a bad place, but merely, a basic human response to doing something for the 1st time. He saw me come in. Out of nowhere, I felt like a lamb willingly allowing itself to be butchered in the hands of the cheetah it allowed itself to be befriended. But I made up my mind and decided that I will not backoff and will see this through. Come on, What the heck ,Viv ! I said to myself.
He said, to make myself comfortable as I saw a neatly arranged bed with cushions, manageable air conditioning and some fluids, incase I got a bit exhausted for the after... He corrected the lights as he said sometimes It might make some people revolt and asked me if I was ok with it and I whispered, that everything was perfect. He came closer, kissed my forehead and held my hands for a few seconds, regulated my breathing and made sure, I was not rushing into it. He ensured I was comfortable, relaxed and able to enjoy what was about to happen.
I closed my eyes, as I realized that I was going to finally cross something off my list, and this had been there for a while. I had seen my friends post about this, and I kind of lagged , as I lacked courage and purpose. I needed someone I could trust when I committed to this and here I was. Lying down. Andrew pressed my hands again, kissed my palms , and slowly massaged my forearms. I could feel my heart racing but still, I was strangely in control of my breath. He came closer, and slowly inserted. That moment - that very moment, I had never experienced an emotion like that before in my life. The thought that what I am doing , is going to support a life, reassured me, gave me a unique pleasure and subdued my many years of fear of doing this right, with the right person. I bit my lip, as I was confident he knew how to do this with me and I let go off myself that moment. I can't describe the emotion that I was going through that moment, He was so gently in control as he began to work on me. As I looked at him approvingly, and he smiled and taking cue, pressed further and then ...
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drew my blood into the sanitized sachet hanging beside, connected to a machine that amazingly began to pump and rotate steadily. He gave me a smiley ball and asked me to periodically press it, as I could see finally that I managed to go past my fear of Needles and Donate Blood. I am 24 years old and I had been suffering from Fear of needles, and my boyfriend was a Nurse at the local clinic.
Now read the whole passage again, but with less of an adolescent mind...
This was written with the view, to give you an unforgettable story to remember . I entreat you to kindly, humbly request you to take good care of yourself and donate blood at healthy intervals. A walk into a blood bank will let you know how much of a serious affair this is everyday and how patients are suffering, waiting for blood components from matching healthy donors. Life isn't taken for granted and sometimes it becomes too late when we realize this. Our body is capable of repairing itself, with a healthy diet and lifestyle and what can be more magical than that? I am not going to lecture you about the benefits of Blood donation - because it is your responsibility to do it now. Don't we grapple with our best efforts to arrange funds when somebody put out a ketto link or some kind of a charity towards a cause? If we can donate money, can't we not donate some honey from this god gifted instrument called the Human body ? Read about the qualifications, restrictions, benefits and rules about blood donation and try to regularly participate in such blood bank camps. Not to blow my own trumpet, but I have donated thrice in my life and I am working towards being more regular about this in the future to come. Every drop matters and Every life counts.
May all be well. . May all be well. . May all be well.
